Help! I'm still in love with my abuser!

I share with you what I think and how I feel. I share with you all in the name of keeping it real. I came to you to talk to you about my messed up situation. I needed your support and your compensation. I came to you, yet you ignored me. You ignored my thoughts and my feelings. I came to you to talk to you about my messed up situation and you minimized my dedication. I came to you and you mocked my feelings and added insult to my injuries. I came to you and you talked to me like I was incapable of a loving relationship and you treated me like I was a child. I came to you and you told me how wrong I was, yes how wrong I was for loving him. You tried to convince me of the right thing to do and the right way to go. You told me all of the reasons that I should leave, but you didn’t understand how badly I wanted to stay!